Comparison.

 

I have a bad habit of comparing myself with others And can't help but find flaws all over. I have filled so many check boxes with things that I am bad at, things I am unable of doing, things that somehow everyone except me can do. 

I spend so much excessive energy trying to indulge myself with negativity.

Sometimes I forget to take a deep breathe.

I have been looking at all the flaws and imperfections that I have forgotten to cut myself some slack. I forgot that I am just a human. And envy can make one's heart black.

On the time of epiphany, I try to sort out all the mess and organise them alphabetically.

And at time like this, I enjoy being a mundane.

A mundane person who knows that even with thousands of flaws, and envy, anger, selfishness trying to turn my heart black, I still have some light within me.

A mundane person who tilts head towards sky, to look at the sunset coating the sky with it's paint, stars and moon and clouds decorating it.

A mundane person who is in desperately in love with little things that no amount of money can make me happier.

Now I just need an extra box to check,

A box that says, I have stop comparing. Because life is not about who is more capable or who is more deserving and more creative, it's not about competition.

Because each of us have some role to play.

Like how without the darkness, the star and moon is unable to shine.

Maybe I am mundane, maybe I am that darkness that helps the stars and moon shine brighter.

Maybe I am just smudge colour, but without me being here this picture is incomplete.